This person wishes to remain anonymous. Please share your love and support.
“I’ve submitted this post anonymously so I can be the most vulnerable and raw, with the hope that I might receive some great advice and counsel from you all.
I am a 25-year-old woman who served a mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints when I was 19.
I’ve always been really active in the church and in the gospel. I feel peace when I’m doing what the Lord would have me do.
I’ve struggled with an addiction to pornography since I was a young girl. (If you’re a woman struggling with an addiction to Pornography check out LDS Women Pornography Addiction Support Group – it’s awesome!)
However, that used to be really my only trial in life. I was doing everything else right; even if I was still struggling with my addiction.
Well, fast forward. It has gotten out of hand. I look at pornography at least once a day – but, sometimes more.
My addiction has also led me to act out and now I’ve lost my virginity to a man that doesn’t even really like me. But, I continue to do it with him because 1) I like it and 2) My insecurities lead me to believe this might be my only opportunity to experience such things.
I don’t pray anymore – like at all. I feel like if I’m praying I’m just mocking God because I’m doing things that I know are wrong. I’m doing them intentionally.
Truth is, I feel absolutely and completely alone. How can I have the desire to do what is right again?
Because currently, I don’t have the desire to try but I’m also aware of the eternal consequences if I don’t ‘shape up’.
Please help me know what to do!”
What counsel and support who you offer this dear sister?